Aaaand here’s the update, ie.  this is where things get really fucked up.

James found me on facebook.  This is our exchange over facebook email.

James:    i am sitting around thinking, its late, there is this girl on my mind and i want to say hello…and how do i say hello… i remember her last name…. so, hello :)
James:    can we talk?

Me:      What would we be talking about?

James:    the world, space, the way your smile lights up my day…

Me:        I don’t really appreciate being treated this way. I really wish you could have gotten the insecurites under control, because it seemed like we had a good thing going there. Maybe if we run into each other again, we can be friends, but sadly, I’m really not interested in anything else.

James:    my insecurities were never in me, they were in you.
James:    and frankly, if we had such a good thing going you wouldnt let it go over a misunderstanding… but thats your deal, not mine
James:    i happen to really like you….

Me:        Right. Ok. i seem to remember you saying your friends had to reassure you over and over that I was into you. I also seem to remember you throwing in the towel because you made up a story in your head how I’d gone home with some dude. Oh, and you also didn’t want to date someone who was going on other dates. I think you were the insecure one.

This then moved to ichat.  I lost the first conversation because I got super pissed and shut it down w/o saving.  I went back on to see if I could retrieve it and he sent me a message saying I was playing games.  This is what ensued.

James:   oh come on, you arent done yet…
James:   jealous?
James:   how could i be jealous of somebody i do not even know?

Me:   well give me a better explanation
Me:   also, i’m not really the one playing games here
Me:   what have i done to you?
Me:   really??

James:   there are no games
James:   you want to know whats up?

Me:   i want to know what i did to you?

James:   i want a chance to get to know you and i want you to reconsider…..
James:   i like you
James:   alot

Me:  you still haven’t answered my question
Me:  because you keep turning this around on me

James:   i apologize, you did nothing
James:   im not trying to turn anything around on you
James:   i just really like you
James:   no games
James:   i want to know about your past by being a part of your future

Me:   the only thing your going to get me to agree on is that we might be friends in the future

James:   so you have no feelings for me?

Me:   no, not anymore
Me:   you acted really fucked up
Me:   and i have no interest in getting involved in that
Me:   and i’d say thats fair
Me:   because you weren’t who you made out to be
Me:   i’m sure you’re still really fun to talk to, thats not going to change, but theres a whole other side thats weird’
Me:   and i don’t want to have to worry about if i don’t call you are you going to think i’m with someone else
Me:   thats a bad way to start

James:  *my name deleted*

Me:   James

James:   you are right
James:   i am sorry for acting the way i did
James:   i really like you, and i reacted improperly…

Me:   ok, apology accepted. i still don’t want to go out with you again. i’m sorry
Me:   now this is where you say, “ok, well I hope we’ll run into each other again sometime”

20 min later….

James:   this is where i say, if you really wanted to know me you would have asked……

Me:   asked you what?
Me:   why you acted this way?
Me:   i thought i did several times

James:   why do you keep responding? you arent supposed to be there when i ask those questions….

Me:   lol
Me:   so….was that the question i was supposed to be asking?

James:   what does it matter?

Me:   it doesn’t really, now i’m just curious

James:   oh, please, i am James i am here to please your curiosities

Me:   hahah you’re the one who was posing the question
Me:   do whatever you want

James:   i just want to see your ass

Me:   ok, now thats my cue to leave
Me:   take it easy James

James:   lol

Then it got creepier (yes…it is possible).  I signed off after the “take it easy” and when I looked for the file this morning there was a new one from after i had signed off.

James:   you were already gone
James:   you just want a toy, you were gone the entire time
James:   i know :)
James:   you are just a product of kharma :)
James:   if you really liked me you wouldnt sway so easily
James:   so please do not tell me we had something good going when you arent even up for fighting for it
James:   i am a great catch
James:   so is a nice chilean bass
James:   i like you
James:   i like you alot…
James:   im sorry i got weird, im not used to feeling this way….. but i like it
James:   hey, can i have just a minute more?
James:   a simple yes or fuck off would suffice
James:   lady, i am the same man you met….
1:15 AM
James:   stop ignoring me…

I’m just bummed cause it had been a really long time since I felt like I connected with someone that way.  I mean, its not many men I take to see the balls on campus.  Bah, too bad i went to see them with MR. CRAZY!  So James, if you ever read this, fuck off.  But thanks for getting me to finally start the blog! :)